一个故事

每一故事都会有结局，是好是坏，是喜还是悲，都由作者来决定。然而，故事读多了，情节看惯了，童话故事一定是完美结局；爱情故事一定是长长久久。
是谁来决定这些结局呢？作者又为何要配合大家的口味而写下‘一定是那样’的结局呢？他们只不过是想不辜负众人所望，希望自己的书大受欢迎。诺他们编的结局是不好的，大众或许会认为那个故事不讨喜，甚至还会批评它的不好。但是，有人想过吗？为何作者会写下如此的结局？也许，那是他的故事？而，那个故事并没有完美的发展下去，就如书本里所写的一样。他，那位作者，只不过想透过他的文字来表达所发生的一切，他所经历的过程，还有他所有的感受。如此真实的故事，并不一定会被大家接受；相对的，完美的童话故事，爱到海枯石烂的爱情故事却比较受欢迎。
而，我的故事，又由谁来决定结局呢？是我吗？还是，观众？
我应该要不负众人所望继续我的完美故事？还是，勇敢地踏出这一步，让故事有所不同呢？

life

LIFE!
owh, i know. its such a word with so many things that can relate to it.
my brother went into hospital and i freaked out!
yesterday, dad called and said, one of my cousins died from cancer. I wasn't so close to her, yet, she was part of my family. what's going on here? we can't deny age, but why?lives have been taken away due to sickness, NOT old aged! I know it's all fated, but I should say, these few years staying in oversea have made me learn more about family. We have been welcoming births and sending off deaths. I wasn't there for any of these, still, I heard the news from calls. Which I never liked it at all (of course, only for the BAD one).
I'm glad that my brother is all good and starting to run around just like my old little brother. But we will never know what would happen tomorrow, or the day after next, or a week later...I really appreciate the time i spend with any of my family members as much as I could, I scare I will regret which I hope I don't when things happen. :(
For everyone who is reading my blog, not to nag at you, but do make a trip back home if you ever got the chance despite the financial matters. You will never know what would happen and might regret for your life. :)

fear

Never liked to get calls from my mum especially at random time. =/ she called me this morning, I heard weird background noises and her tone was a bit weird. I got panicked, I was wondering what happened. 2 years ago, when she called me and she delivered bad news to me. Today, she said my bro was admitted into hospital. I burst out crying so loud and hard. What happened to my only brother?!! I was panicked, worried, and thought of everything bad that might happen.
I prayed so hard and wished I could be at his side.
My little brother, eventhough I may have bullied you all the time but I love you so much. I don't want to be the only child at home if anything bad happen to you. You don't talk like other siblings do, but you listen and I know you love us. Please, please fight hard against anything that caused you into unconscious.
We are always at your side. (L)(L)(L)

dilemma

A post ONLY in a month?! dang! i must have lost my passionate towards blogging. ._. used to blog at least once a week or twice, sometime more, and now, 'm just so not into the mood of blogging anymore. :/
well, uni has started and this is the 3rd week. not quite enjoying it eventhough I have only 9 hours of contact. the least contact hours that I have ever had throughout all my sems in uni. Good thing i don't need to be in uni most of the time, bad thing is that there is a large workload for all 3 units that I'm taking. Tutorial questions for every single week, weekly online assignments, weekly presentation and quizzes every fortnightly. =.= what the?! guess this is my final year uni life, not working hard in the lab, but spend most of the time at home......doing homework lah. :P
Perth has been REALLY HOT. feel like dying already. T.T while walking back from uni, I had to run between shades so that I could keep myself not being bbq-ed. =S hard to sleep at night cause its so warm and have no air condition like back home. :(

look at the forecast!!!!!! =/ =/ =/

anyway, decided to put up photos of the awesome food that I made last week since I havent been posting up my cooking recently. :P

look at the cheese~yum! i made it myself from scratch! i put cheese into chicken breast. :D

an awesome dinner! :P
who is the awesome one here?! hahaha. super syok sendiri. (sss) XD
dilemma of the day
should I or should I not giving up? friend advises me that I should..haih