闷闷的心情

看到标题，应该猜到这篇文章含有伤感的成分吧？bingo~!崭新的一天才开始，怎么那么快就感到悲伤啊？我也不知道。。或许我做得太过火吧？在大学，我几经是把自己封闭起来，独来独往。不是没有尝试和这里的朋友接近，而是永远都感受不到我和中学时代朋友的感觉。也许中学时代的我也不怎么吧？表面似乎我认识很多人，有很多朋友，知心的没几个。我的人很固执，认定了那几个，就永远都不会改变，即使人家变了，我还期望会更以前一样。是我期望太多吗？我承认我很怕孤单，我不喜欢一个人的感觉。我很害怕，我希望被保护。这也就是我很想家的关系吧？有个人告诉我，做人要学会适可而止，不要让人家觉得有压力和我在一起。是啊，我很会死缠烂打，而且有很强烈打破沙锅问到底的性格。我经常不知觉得要人家告诉我所有的一切，因为我本身就是那样。开心，不开心，生气。。不管是什么，我都会告诉我的好友。而我，却不顾人家的感受，常要人家告诉我所有的一切。把人家惹毛了，被轰了，又说人家伤了我，结果翻脸啦~这不就是活该嘛。。我应该怎么做，总觉得我不懂得如何和别人沟通，方法永远是错的。要适可而止，我也想啊~！但是我很难自己静静得待着啊。。我会胡思乱想，想东想西，情绪就开始低落。。:'( 我就是害怕寂寞！还怕孤单！！我能怎么办~！！算了，是我自己不好，永远学不会独立。被我惹毛的人，对不起。:(

after a long time missing...^.^"

good morning everyone!selamat pagi!早安！hehe..dont be surprise to see me writing blog so early in the morning.oh well, didnt sleep for the whole night.I was rushing for the assignment that dues 9am later.(typical me..last min work~tsk tsk..:/ ) eventhough i like math,MAS183 Statistic Data Analysis N Database this particular unit has brought tragedies for me. :( didnt do well for the 1st assign, and now was so blur about the 2nd one.screwed it~haiz.
anyway,someone has requested me to update her about myself! haha~ XD just started week 8 n going to have one week holiday after tis week.yeah~hang on~! tests,assignments,presentations are coming after the holiday! NOOOO!!! im going to have a hectic life after the holiday.T.T..no free time until i actually finish my final.but i knw i'll be procrastinating n last min works will be waiting for me.:/ i should really try to change my bad habit.=[
for the past few weeks my life was just up n down like roller coaster. sometime i could be very happy n i could be very emo the next second. =S im wondering what kind of person should i be?hyper?quiet?autistic?cheerful?happy? no matter what im, i'll just keep having problems with friendship etc etc. I'm just so tired of the life sometime.Why do we have so many problems n obstacles to face on?Why cant we just live like a new-born baby who never needs to worry about anything in his life?The only thing he needs to do is sleep well n eat nicely.How great is that~! however, we have been through that stage, havent we?so,it's past and we have to look forward into our ambiguous future.future,life..they are like unknown values in math questions.waiting us to figure out by diff formulas and calculations. Everyone has different styles in doing the questions. However, the final answer will be still the same - Death. So, how should we do the questions?step by step in a steady way or fancy, challenging way?It's up to u all.:) good luck! aza aza fighting! gambateh!

drink some beer to chill~^^

besides some unhappy things,i did have some enjoyable day too. ^^ those will be my favorite activities, for instance cooking,watching movie and reading novel.(hmm..should i add in studying?lolz.:P) tried some new dishes.some of them worked out well but some didnt. :( wont be elaborating lots about this, shall let the pictures amazed ur eyes. :D

blueberry cake..ma ma dei lo~

indon fried mee.philip said look bit like mamak stall one..aha..:D

one of my favourit--sweet n sour fish.

the laksa is yum~! *drooling*

salad chicken rice

other than that, went for Searching For A Star which organized by church people on sat. It's a great concert except for the poor PA system. Overall it was enjoyable and relaxing. I found out that guys who know how to play music are far more charming though. hehe~ :P post up some photos that i took during the concert. enjoy~ ^^

dancing group - nerd group..:P

the blackie~

tis guy is cute..:D *heart him..*

he sings well! amazed me..:P

the drama

yandebunana~hindi dance..lol~

drama..the couples..

choir..
yesterday was the 1st day of Hari Raya. Wish all Muslims a happy hari raya.:)i miss all the kuihs,cakes,malay thumb licking dishes etc. I attended one open house last year and it was fantastic. (my 2nd time visiting a malay house since the last time when i was in primary 2/3?lol..-.-")

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

alrighty..thats all for this time.gotta go to uni to pass up assign.xD ciao~
take care guys!xxx

090909~!

it looks gorgeous~~

helo everyone! just a short post for today. :) 090909! doesnt that sound beautiful?oh my..how i wish i get 99 roses from a handsome guy at 0909hrs on this particular day!!..^_^ ahaha..alright,wake up wake up..:P

i LOVE blue roses...^^

this will be a perfect gift for me~! hehe~:P

well,eventhough this sounds like a beautiful day,in fact it wasnt a good day for me. :( i got back my test and assignment. Didnt do very well~! screwed it~! T.T haiz...however, i received a msg at 0000hrs on 090909 which made my day. :D thanks!

i also sent msg to 2 ppl...^^ (090909 0909pm)

anyway,i better get back to my work now.
ciao~xxxx

Spring is here!

look at the bee..:)

Goodday folks!! It’s spring season! I’m so happy that spring is coming as this indicates the weather is getting warmer and all the flowers are blooming. I can feel there are new lives everywhere and they make me more energetic each day! :D Today is the 1st day of spring and its my holiday. What a good combination for me as a student. :P This is nice enough to just stay at home and do things that I like. Unfortunately, I have an assignment due this Friday, a lab report yet to be done and Commercial Law test next week. :( they spoilt everything. Urgh~ why do we need to work when we are having break?! I hate this. However, nothing much I can do. This is my life as a student. Haiz~~ Some photos for spring~!










For the past few days, I was enjoying myself to max! ‘Thanks’ to the malays who are having their fasting month, I miss the bazaar and those malay kuih. :( Hence, I decided made few kinds of food that I miss back home such as wantan, har gao, ‘xiao long bao’(ccs's versionXD) and ondeh-ondeh. My housemates and their gfs tried my ondeh-ondeh and they love it! Yay! =D They couldn’t believe this was the 1st time I made them. I feel proud of myself. :P Add some pics for ya all to spot on~^.^

har gao~

wantan

steaming them~

yum yum har gao~ :D

wantan in soup~

my so called 'xiao long bao'

fresh steamed 'xiao long bao'~! with soy sauce added some ginger~yummmm..

own made ondeh ondeh..delicious..^.^

Besides that, I volunteered myself to help during my uni open day. It was a great event and I had pretty much fun too. :) What I did was only counting the number of people attending the lectures and guiding people to the right place for the workshop. It was a real easy job, that’s why I sneaked out a lot of time. Hehe~ :P I had my 1st uni meal during lunch break. (I never buy anything from uni since the beginning of the year.^_^") was a combination meal and I finished everything. Too FULL to move around. LOL. =_= took lots pics for this particular day. :D






my ah tao~audrey :)

look at those small,young, naive kids..

i dun think she is a jap..@.@

sneaking out for a cup of hot milo..(:

so tall...zzz..

sumo..hehe~

met them when i wandered around uni

by the end of the day. :D

Yesterday our house had ‘mooncake gathering’ with the friends of housemates. Thanks to Crystal for bringing over the mooncakes from Malaysia. Terima kasih! xxx They let me tried a kind of wine and they said my expression was hilarious when I 1st drank it. =_=” they told me its grape juice and asked me drink. The taste was just….yuck? When I took a few more sips, it didn’t taste that bad after all. However, my face was so hot and red I assume? @.@ haha~was a terrific night with laughter and enjoyment. :)

2 boxes of mooncakes from msia.

red bean paste mooncake

the wine that i drank..(not whole bottle la~swt..)

I think thats all for this time. enjoy the pics! ^.^ cheers~
ciao~