missing

I was back in Perth since last Sunday. Dad was cremated, thanks for everyone's prayers and all the legal documents are progressing. It sounds good, does it not? I act strong in front of my mum and my brother, I consoled her and ask her to stay strong. I talked to her everyday and she seems better, which nothing else is better than this. However, for me myself, I cried almost every night without anyone knowing. Even back here in Perth, I cry at night before I slept. I even dreamt of my dad yesterday. I miss him too much ey? Sometimes, when I webcam'ing' my mum, I pretended dad was around and just not talking to me. Since he did that most of the time. BUT I know I can't lie to myself and NEED to accept the fact that dad is gone. :(

this is the hard time that I need to go through on my own. I'm tired of acting strong. :(

one last photo that we took together during CNY 2012. I really miss him now T.T

Transit

In singapore now, waiting for my next flight to Kl and back home. The nearer I'm to my destination, the more that I want to avoid the fact that daddy has gone. I really cannot accept it.It's too sudden. I don't know how long can I stay strong for, I know I need to for my mum and my brother. But, I really scare if I break down, I can't get through this. What should I do......