missing

I was back in Perth since last Sunday. Dad was cremated, thanks for everyone's prayers and all the legal documents are progressing. It sounds good, does it not? I act strong in front of my mum and my brother, I consoled her and ask her to stay strong. I talked to her everyday and she seems better, which nothing else is better than this. However, for me myself, I cried almost every night without anyone knowing. Even back here in Perth, I cry at night before I slept. I even dreamt of my dad yesterday. I miss him too much ey? Sometimes, when I webcam'ing' my mum, I pretended dad was around and just not talking to me. Since he did that most of the time. BUT I know I can't lie to myself and NEED to accept the fact that dad is gone. :(

this is the hard time that I need to go through on my own. I'm tired of acting strong. :(

one last photo that we took together during CNY 2012. I really miss him now T.T